This one was hard, the guitar sounded really bad every time I tried to record it. I decided to abandon the original idea and play the chord changes in on piano. This didn't create the sense of urgency I was looking for. I still don't think I found it, but I at least like how it sounds with the synths, and fuzzy guitar.
The words are about being distraught at a party by a girl, and the source followed me to where I was staying the night. I prefer to run from feelings so I decided to walk home. This didn't make me feel better. I called Jordan with whom I was living with to come pick me up if he was still awake. He was usually awake during this period and came to save me from my self pity. After thinking about this, I came up with title. The ending is sort of is inspired by I'm your man. Just the part where he says a man never got a women back by begging on his knees. Wanted to be the pathetic person who tried.
I was waiting on the corner for your eyes
When they found me i felt it in my spine
I was wondering what was in your mind
It was cold to leave me there the whole night
I came into the room my head, was a light
See you looking through me, like I was a ghost
Now this heat is burning all my thoughts
See you leaving, aren't you afraid what you left.
I didn't think that this would hurt me
I thought I was somehow above it all
You were some type of archetype
Caught in my weak ass poetry
Is it sadness? I feel so angry
It's my fault I didn't believe you completely
See i know you warned me
I just never thought it true
You lead. I followed.
And to where? To where didn't matter
I crumpled on the floor
like a stage actress
I didn't think that this would hurt me
I thought I was somehow above it all
You were some type of archetype
Caught in my weak ass poetry
I didn't say it hurt
I begged and pawed at your feet
asking for you to come back to me.
I'm the sad thing that
begged and pawed at your feet
asking for you to come back to me.
Come back to me oh
Please come back to me
Please treat me like shit
