Trying some more

I was pretty burnt out when I was working on getting the songs from last year all mixed and posted online. I felt I may need to take some time off, but I guess a week is about long enough. I can't resist opening the ableton icon on my computer any more, and I'm back at the guitar and my lyric docs again. I haven't gotten real deep into anything yet, especially the projects I thought I would be working on in my last post. I did do another version of the song I did with @FilthyZinester. I added some moog bass and some more rhythmically interesting drums, in addition to some other small tweaks. The song in question is linked at the bottom.

I feel pretty proud of getting the 12 songs done and collected. The response has been a little disappointing, the play count charts on the site are pretty low. I expected some of my family to listen or something. What I was really hoping for was some stranger to talk to me about it or something. I guess really just some friends, which is ridiculous. Why would that be the result? Silly expectations aside I guess I am feeling pretty good about it and excited to work on some more stuff.

Done resolutioning

I am calling it complete, I posted on soundcloud and made a bandcamp where you can hear if you are interested. I didn't let myself revisit songs that I had mostly done prior to 2015 so that is a small bonus victory. I discovered that I think the songs sound better on bandcamp which I haven't used before. I don't know how to continue I think I am going to take a month break then go back to trying to do one song a month. My resolution for 2016 is less quantifiable, just stop becoming fatter and dumber. Just started a running program and trying to read more non fantasy books.

For music projects I'm planning I have a song from 2010 that I am polishing up called 'I Dream of Her Touch' it was my favorite song I had before I started trying. I have the song I was working on for December called 'I'm a Fucking Bummer' which should be pretty mopey and loud in the chorus, but I have no idea for the verse. All I had was an organ and a mini rant about suicide being embarrassing. I also I'm trying to get together a song called 'Peace' which I wrote at Adam's funeral.

Thanks for listening if you do.

December

I was running out of steam I think, I was way behind on November and was not able to get anything rolling for December. I decided to just try and finish this thing I had floating around and count it. Sometime this year I will try and finish I'm a fucking bummer, which is the original song I was working for December. This one has some words I don't really remember what they are, something like

Said I wanted to die, can you believe my nerve
Why does this life have to feel like joke
When is it gone
When is it gone

November

This one I was trying to brush up on more chord variations and sort of built around the A minor 7th thing. The words for this were improvised and then edited. My plan was to do a guitar solo in the middle, but couldn't come up with one. So I tried to add an organ, but didn’t like it. So I had the drums, bass, and guitar that I liked and wasn't sure what else to add. I did some effects on the guitar then threw a synth on it. IDK Trial and error right? whatever.

It seems like the way

She holds my head

Could save my mind

if I just tried a little more.

She said love is pure,

Love is the truth

you ever feel that way?

I don’t know I feel mostly ashamed

what’s it going to take

to make me feel ok

never seems enough

I should be made of stronger stuff

How did you get stuck with me

Can't escape my suffering

what an an ugly thing

I hate to be awake

the days are so long

I don’t know what to do

Maybe I should sleep a little more

she holds my mind

like it wasn’t all the weight

like it wasn’t all detritus from my mouth

oh take me away

She’s all I ever wanted man

I’m such a little girl,

I could totally cry

I guess I always was that way

How did you get stuck with me

Can't escape my suffering

what an an ugly thing