This song I wanted to try and write something in a major key as well as more up tempo than I had been. the words spewed out in a kinda gibberish with a resigned sadness that was the vibe in the book I was reading when I started writing them “Nobody is Ever Missing”. I needed an extra stanza (is that the word? fuck it) so I threw in a Leonard Cohen reference. I have a lot of those written down, because I love him. The chorusish part sounded like a party to me so I edited it to be how I feel about parties. That’s how I came around to the title, and was able to focus it a bit more. I added the lead guitar after I thought I was done, and it turned out to be my favorite part.
Words that you said, came into my mind
I fell for the truth, Said i wanted to be
someone else
I know it’s a hoax, some kind of a joke
The biggest lie put up on a stage
I wanted to give you something more
I wanted to give you some type of proof
That I was real
He said it before, She said it to me
From the tip of my tongue. it fell again
You, You are a bird
On a wire and I am a drunk,
In a midnight choir
I can’t seem to feel alright
I stood in the corner avoiding eyes
I can’t just walk out of here
I drank all of the wine
It's to loud to speak
Oh man is it cool if I leave
I feel like shit
I wasn’t the one , who put us here
I wasn’t the one, who played sincere
Take me home, throw me away
I know want that I want
I just want to fade away
I just can’t say no, to anything
That might feel good, or black out my brain
I came from big dreams
back down to the earth, I guess I can stay
Who am I trying to fool anyway
I wanted to change, I know I said that before
I wanted to change, even if I never have before
What is it going to take
to make it all go away
I can’t seem to feel alright
I stood in the corner avoiding eyes
I can’t just walk out of here
I drank all of the wine
It's to loud to speak
Oh man is it cool if I leave
I feel like shit
